MOM;
I JUST WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU TODAY AND I THOUGHT I WOULD LET YOU KNOW JUST HOW VERY MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME AND HOW LOVED YOU ARE. THESE PAST WEEKS YOU HAVE SHOWED US ALL AMAZING COURAGE AND STRENGTH . I AM SO PROUD TO CALL YOU MOM. I KNOW EVERYTHING HAS BEEN DIFFICULT AND WEIGHING HEAVY UPON YOU AND YOU HAVE BEEN AMAZING WITH IT ALL. GRANDMA IS PROUD OF ALL YOU HAVE DONE FOR HER, I CAN FEEL IT AND I HOPE YOU CAN TO. YOU NEVER REALLY COMPLAINED ABOUT ANYTHING AND YOU JUST KEPT GOING AND GOING FOR HER AND ALL OF US. WE HAD SOME VERY HARD TIMES THE LAST COUPLE DAYS BUT SO AMAZING STUFF ALSO HAPPENED AND I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THAT. YOU ARE THE ONE WHO MAKES IT BETTER FOR ALL OF US AND WE THANK YOU. MY BOYS LOVE YOU DEARLY AND I AM SO HAPPY THEY HAVE YOU AS THEIR NANA. JUST DO ONE THING FOR US ALL, IT IS TIME TO TAKE SOME TIME FOR YOURSELF AND NO MATTER WHAT YOU CHOOSE TO DO, ENJOY EVERY MINUTE OF IT AND KNOW YOU MATTER TO ALL OF US AND WE ARE GRATEFUL FOR YOU EVERYDAY. MAY I HAVE THE STRENGTH YOU HAVE SHOWN WHEN IT MATTERS THE MOST. PLEASE DO NOT EVER DOUBT OUR FEELINGS FOR YOU, YOU ARE THE GREATEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE;
Cami,Stephanie and Anne ( your awesome daughters) just joking hahahaha
Sunday, June 29, 2008
TO MY MOM!!!!!
Saturday, June 28, 2008
WOW, THIS IS A REALLY MOTIVATIONAL QUOTE.....
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
NELSON MANDELA
Thursday, June 19, 2008
BORDOM HAS SET IN
Oh lordy, what a boring day so far. I have been at work since 7am this morning and I have only assisted 4 patients. Not that I am complaining or anything, i am just so darn bored. I have done everything I can possibly imagine and now I just get to sit here and say hello to you all, or surf the Internet for the 400th time. however, I must admit that after the horrible week last week, it sure does feel good to get back in the swing of things. I am still sad about my grandma, but I got to believe she is in a better place and enjoying her reunions with all her loved ones who passed on before her. The mortuary called my mom and said that my grandma was ready to be picked up (she was cremated), and that just seemed out of this world to me. So, my mother and I will go get her remains on Monday and go from there. With her not wanting any services, she sure made it difficult to deal with her passing, but it was her wishes and we had to honor that. We will be spreading her ashes in Potash Canyon in Moab later this summer or early fall. I am looking forward to that, I think I am looking forward to it because it will finally bring a sense of closure and goodbye to it. It is still up in the air though, there has been talk that my uncle Mike and his children will do it ALONE, and if that is the case, that is fine. Mike was my grandma pride and joy and her baby, so it does seem kinda right. The mortuary had told me they would give me a portion of her to do with what I would like. I have decided that sometime in the next year, Justin,the boys and I will go to Canyon de Chinle and spread her there. I am doing it because my grandmother and I had a wonderful trip there together about 12 years ago and I want to take her to a place that was special to the two of us. I hope that we can get there sooner than later. Well, I guess I have rambled on yet again, so I will sign off for now. Have a great day all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cami
Saturday, June 14, 2008
GOODBYE GRANDMA
Well here I am 4 days later. My grandmother passed away around 5am 06-10-08. I am so happy she is out of her pain, yet I am so sad that I can not hold her hand anymore. This women held our family together and now that she is gone, will we all be ok? I just want to let her know, that all my life I have looked up to her and have tried to make her proud of me, I hope she passed on knowing that. Until we meet again I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!
OBITUARY POSTED IN THE MOAB TIMES INDEPENDANT
Patricia R. Herrick passed away on June 10, 2008 at the home of her daughter, Kathy, in Ogden, Utah.
Mom was born on Jan. 27, 1932 to William Clifford and Waneta Wise Reed in Dayton, Ohio. She married Ken “Bish” Herrick on March 30, 1954. Dad passed away on May 31, 1996. After dad passed away mom moved to Moab and has resided there the past 12 years. Mom was a caring wife, mother, grandmother and friend and will be missed by many.
Mom was preceded in death by her husband, her parents and one brother.
Mom is survived by her sister, Donna Henry; five children, Laurel (Kelly) Weaver, Kathy (Ron) Terkelson, Chris (Debra Gurule) Herrick, Susan Leishman and Michael Herrick. She is also survived by 12 grandchildren: Teresa,Nick,Cami,Stephanie,Anne,Jeremy,Kristin,Audrey,Ryken,Aurianna,MaKayla and Kenny and 13 great-grandchildren: Katelynn,Spencer,Jaykob,Camiren,Mason,Jerrica,Anthony,Isabella,Angel, Emery, Harli,Ashley and Tiffany. She is also survived by a special friend, Gib Allred.
Special appreciation is expressed on behalf of the IHC Hospice and to our sister Kathy for her loving care of our mother.
As per her wishes she will be cremated and there will be no services.
Cremation was under the direction of Aaron’s Mortuary & Crematory, 1600 Washington Blvd., in Ogden.
Condolences may be emailed to the family at aarons@relia.net.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
What really is death?
Hello all, I am just sitting her at my mother's house and wondering what is really is to die. This probably sounds so way out there but I am wondering that because for the last 2 days I have been sitting here with my grandmother and waiting for it to happen. As I have been here there has been many moments when I have wondering where the heck GOD is and why is he making my grandmother suffer so bad. As I have been asking myself these questions I also find myself wondering how we can love someone so much,yet be so willing to take them for granted. These questions have been eating at me and eating at me all weekend. This women I am sitting here with,holding her hand,rubbing lotion on her legs and arms has been a rock in my life and I am having so much pain it is unreal. My grandmother is and always will be an amazing women. This women has done for me what my parents could not. She has given me so many memories and stories to tell. How can I say goodbye, yet how can I convince her to let go. She is not the grandmother I remember. I look at her laying there breathing so shallow and looking in the corners of the room and sometimes just smile as if smiling at whomever she See's in that corner. She is so fragile and frail. And I just wish GOD would take her and let her be at peace. I know that she is in so much pain and is in a place she never wanted to be. COMPLETELY DEPENDANT. Is is so strange to me that we come into this world completely dependant, grow up live life and as we get old we become completely dependant. WOW. This is so messed up to me. I am trying my hardest to find comfort in it all but I can not seem to find it. I also keep feeling guilty because of those times where I sit in there with her and keep telling her to let go. I wish I knew what she is thinking when we all tell her that. Does she know we are telling her this because we love her so much and want her to be rid of all this pain, or does she think we do not care. I know this is complete rambling but I needed to get this out, whether it made sense or not. I feel so alone yet so surrounded at the same time. I hope that this women dies with some pride and dignity and I am so hoping it will be soon. Until then it is just waiting and remembering this women I m so proud to call MY GRANDMA... I love you grandma and we will be OK, just let go and go be with grandpa. You have made us all the people we are today and no matter what we know you are proud. You have nothing to worry about we learned everything we need to know from you. Your teaching is done go home and dance with grandpa . Love; Cami
